The 10 things I want to do or see happen before I die

Wake up in a good mood, without the horrible fear


Learn Hebrew


See my mother experience grace and mercy so she can show me some


Trace my family ancestry. I'm told they come from Isreal on my father's side. I don't know if it's true. My family has secrets


See my brother grow up into the man I know he wants to be, so I can watch him be happy


Go camping again


Be a cyclist again


Be a painter again


Love people again


I know, that's only 9. I can always ask for 10 more things with the last 1.
Right?

I saw her in a petsmart. i think i love her.

should I, or shouldn't I ... should I, or shouldn't I.
Do it. NO, don't.
Yes, do it!
Do it! Do it! Do it!
NO, shut up.
Those eyes.
Leave me alone, self.
But those eyes. So green, so loving, so full of almond shape ...
SHOO.
But you would love her desperately.
GO AWAY.
Your boy cat loves girls. You've seen how he gets. It's so cute. His desperate little male whine. He's so sweet when he gets like that. So sweet.
He's neutered. So. LEAVE ME ALONE.
But...

no.

I'll be going back to see her next week. I hope she's already been adopted out.